| I'm a lonely chord without a song |
[03 Mar 2005|09:28pm] |
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Tsunami Bomb |
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I know I have the chance to meet you, but that's a risky move.
I know I might have to surrender my preexisting idea of you.
Right now you're a stranger-let's keep it that way. No harm meant.
Let's keep it that way. I'm quite content knowing that i don't know you-
I can pretend. Let's keep it that way. You could never understand how much you mean to me.
I don't want you going and screwing it up with your personality.
I'll stay in this dark corner of my room where
I can't be seen, but I can still see you. You could be anyone.
My fantasy would be undone. I want to continue looking up to you. ~Tsunami Bomb
I want her. It's that simple; I want her. It's odd how exhilarating it is seeing someone virtually everyday just exchanging smiles, laughs, light touches, and the like. It feels as if we are doing this slow meticulous dance around the subject. There is this undercurrent of flirting going on between us and it sweeps me away, but sometimes I sit and contemplate if I’m the only one that’s feeling it.
They way she walks shows off her exudes confidence like she knows she’s the shit and she knows that I want it. She has this seemingly predator like strut at times and I want so badly for her to just make her move, make me her prey, attack and ravish me.
She has this overwhelming power to turn me into a complete bumbling idiot. She’ll say something and wait for a response and I’ll revert back to infancy where I’m incapable of forming words yet alone a complete sentence.
I like to think that I’m a funny person at least that’s what my friends have told me. I get a joke in my head and my brain starts the process of sending it through my body and when it has reached its destination and the words cross my lips the reaction is a mirror image of a Rich Vos joke, complete silence with a little sweet polite giggle at how bad it truly was. To say that I bombed would be an understatement.
Do you remember when you were little and adults would always preach to you about not looking directly at the sun and you wouldn’t…while they were there. The seconds would tick by the adult would wander away and you find your head turning and looking up towards the sky. Your eyes begin to focus in on their target and for a moment you are blessed with the sight of something truly amazing. Moments later you receive your penalty for looking…the blinding light. You look away and try to adjust your eyes back to normal.
It’s kind of the same with her. I can’t stop looking at her even though I know I shouldn’t. I realized that it is rather creepy. So I have to steal glances at her knowing that if I get caught I may get burned. I pick and choose my moments and I get my reward in seeing beauty that is beyond words and seconds later I have to avert my eyes back to normalcy, back to darkness.
She is my light at the end of the tunnel my salvation without her I fear I shall be consumed by the darkness that has ruled me.
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(2 lushs | you're a touch over rated you're a lush and i hate it)
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[24 Nov 2004|02:09am] |
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time and distance - i miss new york |
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It has been brought to my attention that i dont update anymore so here's a quick recap of this month
Election Day- officially worst day ever my grandfather passed away in a semi horrible fashion and bush was re-elected.
speaking of dying i dyed my hair black and cut it short about a week ago everyone seems to really like it.
Hmm last friday I got talked out of dropping out my mass comm class by my friend....she bribed me with a copy of maxim magazine with Avril on the cover..."avril likes to kick the girls in their boxes" lmao...also kristin (heller-san) thinks i love the word fuck now just because apparently avril loves the word fuck lol
I had a lunch "date" with cristina last tuesday at least i think it was last tuesday...that was nice i hardly ever get to see her anymore. She finally came to the realization that lauren is both annoying and a stalker which is a plus. She does hand out with extrmely weird geeky guys but as long as she's happy.
I think the GSA has fallen apart we havent had a meeting in like 3 weeks there was one today i think but i had something to do and nobody goes anyway. Is this the end of the gay club? Is John now putting Greek before Gay? Find out next week on Days of our Homo!
Hmm so today I went to philosophy helped out Melissa with a problem she had because we have the same psychology professor. Speaking of psychology i think i failed another test today haha im gonna fail out of college go me. After Psych I walked over to the apartments to see Heller-san for our Jappy get together....i <3 that girl we always have a jappy good time....so we worked on the 124729755 work book pages we have to make up i still didnt finish im so screwed....we talked i made fun of her like the oc, she bitched on how no one went to the track party with her the other night she just wont let it go lol then amanda and bill came home....amanda is such an evil mastermind her kristin and i were discussing how they can get rid of their other two roomates so they can keep the apartment all to themself...amanda was redecorating the apartment in her head it was great to see her at work...then she felt the sudden urge to clean because they have inspections before they leave to go home kristin took a picture of the memorable moment.
I guess thats about it for now later
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| I love waking up to crazy jappy-ness |
[27 Sep 2004|06:17am] |
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w i m K O H: hey listen
Auto response from X0Deja Entendu0X:
w i m K O H: hopefully you will read this in the mornng
w i m K O H: i CAN NOT HANDLE this jap BULLSHIT
w i m K O H: this 13 workbook sheets FUCKIN SHIT
w i m K O H: i NEED HELPPPPP
w i m K O H: so if youre not doing anything i will be here at 12 tomorrow you should come over
w i m K O H: you know where to go already anyway
w i m K O H: and i neeeeed help
w i m K O H: ill get lunch for us and we can do jap
w i m K O H: I HATE JAP
w i m K O H: so let me know if you wanna come over here and do jap with meee
w i m K O H: my cell is 2034371bleepbleep2 btw
w i m K O H: hope you have a pleasant evening!
w i m K O H: morning
w i m K O H: cause its f*ing 1 AM and im still trying to do jap
w i m K O H: I HATE THIS
w i m K O H: lol tom when you get up
w i m K O H: youre gonna be like
w i m K O H: woo
w i m K O H: hoo
w i m K O H: 4379216438762 ims
w i m K O H: but theyre
w i m K O H: all
w i m K O H: gonna
w i m K O H: be
w i m K O H: from
w i m K O H: heller-san
w i m K O H: ahhhh
w i m K O H: so good nite!!
w i m K O H: 8-)
w i m K O H: thats the sleeping smiley with one of those eye masks on
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[11 Sep 2004|07:11pm] |
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Aparently I'm not wanted at slave anymore so i think im going to stop going.
So I'll be looking for someone to take care of the community.
Funny it was the only place I've ever liked being at...
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K-Rock Presents Taking Back Sunday
With guests Atreyu • Funeral For A Friend • Like Yesterday
Roseland Ballroom
Friday, November 19
Show at 7PM / Doors @ 6:15PM
Tickets on sale Thursday, August 12 at noon
Anyone want in? i really really want to go please! lol
Im blowing off the coheed and cambria my chemical romance show i think because Im dying to see tbs.
Also Janeane Garofalo is going to be at town hall on sept 4th anyone want to go?
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"It’s very hard to be with an English teacher. In the beginning of our relationship, I would write her all of these romantic love letters, and she would send them back corrected. ... My mother is totally cool about my being gay; she’s very supportive and very OK about it. My girlfriend and I are even allowed to sleep in the same bed when we are at the house. Which is weird, because when my mother and stepfather visit us, we don’t let THEM sleep together—because it’s creepy and weird. We have very impressionable animals."
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